2013. Yep.
I start a new semester tomorrow. I have this odd feeling of "looking-forward-to-ness" about the rest of this school year. I won't say hopefulness. That's stretching it. But I have these little feelings that maybe these last few months until summer won't be horrible. Because I just keep thinking how close I am to being done with this nightmare they label "high school."
I guess one thing I'm kind of looking forward to is a new attitude. I decided to make my New Year's resolution, which isn't so much a goal, just trying a new way of thinking. I don't want to sit around waiting for things to happen anymore, like I have been for the past 7 months. I want to take action. If I want something, I'm going to go after it. Not in a completely aggressive way, but maybe a confident way. For example, I put this new thought process into action at midnight New Years Eve... or day. I don't know. But there was this guy that I had a crush on, the problem was that he's older, living on his own, and I wasn't sure that he actually liked me back the same way. I felt good about my chances though, so I went for it and poured my little heart out in a long text message sent at exactly midnight. It started out as
"It's midnight, I'm feeling brave, so here's a secret for you..."
I was rejected. Again.
But I was proud of myself. I tried. Instead of waiting for him to never ask me on the date I wanted so badly, I went for it. Although it didn't end the way I had wanted, I still tried. I tried I tried I tried.
Anyway, it's a new semester, like I said. And with this proudness (pretty sure you won't find that in the dictionary) bubbling inside of me, I have a feeling I can conquer a little more than last semester. Or maybe just get rejected a little more. Either way, it's a change. I think.
What are you doing differently this year? If you have no idea what to do, go check out my friend's new blog she started with another friend of hers! Where's the Shuffle Button? is an adorable documentation of music. They're looking for lots of feedback, so head on over and leave a comment! Be nice, they're only two days old!
Closing out.
Thanks Jack Johnson for delivering great music and a title for this post.
It so perfectly fits with my life.
Happy New Year kids.